I am Fearless

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Liz @ Fitness Blondie



Liz over at Fitness Blondie who is amazing and inspiring and gorgeous.. oh I got caught up shes total woman crush material has bared or is it beared her soul to us and shared her amazing story. Read it here. Now she wants to know what makes you fearless?

http://fitnessblondie.blogspot.com/2014/06/befearless-join-movement-share-your.html


I have previously shared my story herehere, and the second part here. 
Please feel free to click on over an read my story, I would share it again but I don't want to bore my loyal readers out. A lot of the times we'd rather share things that are funny or whimsical but sometimes we have to be true to ourselves and that's what the whole point of being fearless is. 

Have I always lived fearlessly? No. I was scared of judgement, criticism, living alone, my appearance, you name it I was afraid of it. Am I completely fearless now? Nope. It's something I am working on daily.

How am I fearless?

I overcome an abusive relationship with friends, an ex-husband, and with food. I had friends that were toxic...they'd feed me the lines I wanted to hear and drag me down right along with them. My exhusband abused me emotionally & physically. In fact the emotional abuse was far worse than the physical..I literally felt like an empty shell just floating through life. I had no feelings .. I was just there...numb and letting my life pass me by. Which turned into an abusive relationship with food. I was eating to fill some sort of void in my life and at the time food was the only thing that made me happy. I don't even think you could say happy, food gave me something to look forward to but the only feeling I felt was full. Then the fullness would go away and I'd slump back into my chair and get lost in a daze of nothingness until I decided I needed to feel full again. So the cycle continued and the weight piled on.. I didn't care. If I wasn't eating I was sleeping. It kills me to admit this now but I would put Bailey in front of the TV just so I could sleep. I had no drive really no will to do anything.

I wish I could tell you what finally made things click for me. I can't. One day I just got out of bed and decided I didn't want to live like that anymore. I wanted to be a better person and a better mother. I wasted some good years living in that funk and I can't get them back now and that is a regret I will live with for the rest of my life. However, I made a lifestyle change I dropped all the dead weight in my life which includes toxic friends, my ex-husband, and my unhealthy eating habits.

I am fearless because
  • I made a decision that would forever change my life and never looked back.
  • I no longer let anyone or anything control me.
  • I am control of my happiness and how I react to things.
  • I am no longer a prisoner in my own body.
  • I faced the judgement and critisism and realized it really wasn't that big of a deal.
  • I chose to love myself again when I didn't think I was worth loving.
  • I heard people talk about my fad diets and being referred to as Oprah but I didnt let that stop me.
  • I am happy with who I am.
  • I am confident with who I am.
  • I am strong because I embraced myself!
before

My kids have always been my biggest motivators but once I finally done this for ME, not my kids, not for other's approval, not because it sounded good...but really did these things for me. THAT is when I felt fearless and alive again!
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19 comments

  1. I absolutely LOVE this! so well said and such good reminders for the rest of us!!

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  2. You are fearless!!! You have overcome everything that has held you down and are stronger for it.

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  3. You look amazing! I've said it before but I am so happy to have met someone that can understand certain experiences in a way that no one else will be able to.

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    1. Yes girl after reading your post I had chills and it took me back to my own story. I still have goosebumps. Look at what we've overcome though beautiful healthy women! Love yah girl!

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  4. AMAZING. I found you through our FEARLESS leader. Yeah, I went there! Haha.

    I love it. Today, these posts, all of them.. so positive.. so motivating.

    My story is all over my blog, and one day I should just write it into one concise story.. And one day.. I will..

    I'm so glad to have found your spot, and I'm going to read more from you. Get ready for lots of COMMENTS from this chick!
    HA!

    I just started a link up , about furthering the Healthy Journey and having support from all our friends in the blogiverse. Check it out. Maybe join in next week?

    www.katerivonstealsnewlife.blogspot.com

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    1. Lol thank you so much :))
      Absolutely I will check it out!!

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  5. Awesome story! And you look great!

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  6. Damn girl!!! You look amaze!! Cheers to all of the positive changes you have made in your life!!

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  7. This is great and I am so glad you are at a better place. I was in a very abusive relationship in college and people always seem to think that you "just let it happen" people will never understand unless it happens to them!

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  8. So glad you overcame it all! GO ON WITH YOUR BAD SELF! :D

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  9. girl, you look amazing! congrats on the weight loss. :)

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  10. thanks for sharing your incredible story!

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  11. DAMN GIRL! You look hot as hell!!! You just go!! HIGH FIVE!

    I am realizing that majority of the "friends" I had were abusive towards me. I never realized it until I read this. So, thank you for that. That is the whole reason why I blog!

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  12. Brittney. Wow. I am speechless. I knew you had been going through a divorce, but I had no idea it was of this caliper. You have come out so strong. Now I see why you started this blog and chose this blog name - it is so perfect for you. You look as beautiful as ever and I'm so happy things have changed around for you. You're an awesome lady and I am so happy to call you my friend. Thank you for sharing. Your story was incredibly moving.

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  13. Go you and congrats for being in a much better place now!

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  14. you are fearless and hot! keep doing you girl!

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  15. You are fearless for sharing this story with the world. I am so glad that you overcame all of those struggles because it brought you here. I think you're absolutely gorgeous, honest, and amazing and I'm proud of you for pouring your heart out! Hopefully you'll find better, more supportive friends through blogging - like me! Lol.

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  16. seriously though, such a strong woman! thank you for sharing your story xo

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