Bye Bye Social Media....

    So I was sitting at work today and my phone started ringing, I immediately hit ignore and went back to doing what I was doing. Which was searching for a file folder of a loan that closed in 2010...dude I looked through every file box in this office and Im so counting that as a workout. Any-offsubject-way when I finally sat back down at my desk I checked my voicemail. I usually NEVER check my voicemail but since the upcoming bad weather and all the kids' schools and afterschool coaches are calling me for cancellations or early dismissals I checked it. Much to my surprise it was a local board of education rep. I HAVE A TEACHING INTERVIEW MONDAY! I am so so excited. I graduated college last May and was unable to find a job.

   It is my dream to be back in the classroom. So I thought long and hard about it. I have to be serious about this and really think how my personal life can interfere potentially with my career. No one wants a teacher who looks like shes drunk and partying all the time (for the record I'm not, I just had a great time last weekend and there are plenty of pictures to prove it). I could have just set all my pictures to private and my page is already private but I really just want to be off the grid in hopes that I can land this job.

   I still have my twitter and since I just started this blog Im pretty sure it is undetectable so I am keeping it. (I have to have something to do during the day when I am at work right?) I have only had one previous teaching interview and I studied for that interview like crazy. Yes I googled every possible teacher interview question and I had a sure answer for all of them. I went into the interview and had an answer for everything but I was extremely nervous and it showed. This is a special education position and although I completed my course work in college for Special Ed (I have a collaborative degree) I still don't feel like I really know everything there is to know about it like IEPS, LREs, and all that jazz.  I wrote one IEP the entire time I was in college, and when I was doing my internship my teacher never included me in hers. I really want this job and I really want to be teaching again. I just dont know how to prepare for the interview because I do have a lack of experience in this area. I have subbed and completed observation hours but the amount of time I actually spent in a special education classroom was very limited.

   Anyway, back to my point. I said goodbye to social media for a while anyway. Have you seen how many teachers get in a world of trouble because of their facebook pages? I definitely don't want that. Also what you see is not always what you get. Judging by my pictures this weekend, for example, I looked belligerently drunk. The truth? I drank water all night. I think a lot of the times when teachers get in trouble its more of a misunderstanding than anything unless their sleeping with their students and in that case should be reprimanded EW! Eventually I will reactivate it but I will never add parents to my page. I think my personal life should be separate. Just because I enjoy a glass of wine every now and then doesnt change my ability to teach or if I go to the pub to shoot pool that doesnt change it either. I imagine trying to maintain a spotless rep as a teacher is pretty tough.

  So are any of you teachers out there? And advice for my interview or tips?

Confirm or Deny that is the question...

If you're new here you can read this post and this post to really understand the craziness of everything thats happened over the last year. However who has time to read 2 posts then read another one to catch up #aintnobodygottimeforthat so long story short, my ex and I have been anything but civil, in and out of court, and his girlfriend and I haven't had the best encounters either.

However, over the past 2 months things have calmed down and we're all being civil towards one another and we communicate through facebook messages because it just makes it easier on all of us. Its easier to sit and think about what youre going to say whereas in person or on the phone it could get heated quickly and turn into an argument.

Ive been letting my boys go over there pretty frequently and of course when they are over there I communicate with the girlfriend through facebook to check on my boys. We are friendly and civil. All is good. Im happy with that, where as it wasnt even close a few months back.

This weekend I received a notification and it was her wanting to add me as a friend on facebook. That I had to think about. It is one thing to be nice and civil and friendly for the kids. However, it is quite another to basically invite someone in to your personal life on a daily basis. I dont want any more drama but I feel like no matter what there will be a little. "ugh look what shes doing when she doesnt have the kids, look what she said, etc" or "why wont she add me on facebook, what is she hiding, etc"See what I'm saying?!

I feel its best to continue the path that we're on. Keeping it simple and civil but that is it. We were friends before on facebook and it didn't end well. Isn't Facebook high school all over again?! I don't feel the need to know what they're doing in their household or when they dont have my children, and vice versa we live separate lives now and there is certainly no need to add any misunderstandings or drama to the mix.

I have every intention of being friendly with her and civil but at this time I don't feel it is necessary for us to be facebook friends. They want pics of the boys take some want to know what they're doing give them a call. I can think of no valid reason why we should share our personal lives with one another.

What do you think would you confirm or deny?

Dancing the night away.....

This weekend was absolutely epic. I don't think I have had that much fun since I was 19 years old. We both planned to stay at home with the kiddos this weekend, but out of no where my ex wanted my 2 boys and T's mom wanted him. We were supposed to be saving money and not going out anymore as I said in this post we need to save up to buy a house. However, my brothers new girlfriend was like I want to go out dancing and well we ended up going out anyway.

Usually when we go out I sit at the table and watch my bf and our friend James play pool. Every now and then I will play also. However, Saturday night Celina (my bro's new gf) wanted to dance. Im usually self conscience and don't want to dance because I feel like everyone is watching me. When we first got on the dance floor it was just us two and I felt really uncomfortable. Does anyone else always feel like people are judging them?! Finally I was like I don't give a damn I just want to have fun without worrying about what other people think of me. I danced for about 4 hours straight.. I was pouring sweat but I felt amazing. I think that was the first time in 7 years that I really 'let my hair down' (do people still say that?)

I weighed myself this morning. I lost 2 lbs this weekend, obviously dancing is a great workout. Im feeling it for sure my legs and abs are super sore.

Sunday the kids came home and we set up the slip and slide so they could all play in the water. Except Brock, he wanted NO part of it LOL

Overall it was a great weekend UNTIL <insert dramatic DUN DUN DUN music>  I noticed something in Brock's hair. I mentioned he just started preschool last month well guess what he brought home. Head lice. Yall I about had a heart attack. I don't deal with bugs EVER! I checked the other kids hair and nothing so he had to get it from daycare. I had to run to walmart and get something to treat it. I went ahead and treated all 3 boys and then I sprayed my house down like a mad woman...it may have smelled like straight bug spray for a couple of hours. Hes 2... I seriously didnt think I would be dealing with that. Thankfully I caught it early and its all gone. Ugh please God dont let me have to deal with that again Brittney dont do bugs!

Aside from that we had an AMAZING weekend ... how was yours?!

Starting over

Hey guys it's me Brittney. I have been blogging at Real Talk (previously mommywood) since 2009. I took a year off from blogging and my life has changed drastically. I posted 682 times at Real Talk.. about my marriage, my weight, etc. Im not that girl anymore, although I hate to leave it behind I think its time to start over new. I created Brittney, Breaking Free because that's exactly what I am doing. I am breaking free of my old life and starting over in the blogging world and in real life. I am starting a new journey of figuring out who I am and what my purpose is.

I don't know where I am going and I don't know what my "niche" will be yet. Thats the whole point of breaking free and starting fresh don't you think?

Bare with me as changes take place. I want to hopefully get a better blog design and really grow this blog as I did my old one.

So farewell Real Talk..its been well Real. Im ready to close that chapter and begin a new one...a fresh one... One that isnt full of painful memories and sore wounds.